Tough news

Recently my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and just underwent a bilateral mastectomy. She will begin chemotherapy in about a month. I went to Joplin to be with her and my dad during her surgery and to help around the house afterward. I came Saturday afternoon because Savannah was running a fever. It was very hard to leave my mom. All I want to do right now is help take care of her and help her to feel better about all the scary things going on right now. I too am scared and I am finding it's hard to focus on caring for Emily and Savannah when all I feel like doing is crying. I've noticed my patience level is really short when I am sad...so hopefully the girls will be on good behavior or I'll finally get over the sad part of this whole thing and move forward. It's a lot to take in right now. I want to pray for my mom and my family but right now I just don't know what to pray. Sounds strange, huh? I think I just have so many thoughts going through my head at once that I just can't slow down to focus on prayer. I'm really hoping to change that soon. It's the best think I can do for my mom when I am 3 hours away from her.