Ahh...The Good Times and The Bad times

Today it is totally freezing out side...9 degrees to be exact. It is snowing and our neighborhood looks so pretty and peaceful with all the snow. The girls have been asking me if they can go outside and play in the snow. My answer is that is has to get warmer before we can go outside. They want to build a snowman so much they can hardly stand it! Unfortunately because it is so cold outside, it makes for a rather light and powdery snow, not really good for snowmen building. We'll see, maybe we can get outside and make a small one.

The girls were so cute after lunch today. They brought about 10-12 stuffed animals out of their rooms, lined them up across the couch and then pretended to be leading them in singing time. My guess is they are imitating music time at their mother's day out program. I was able to discreetly video tape them while I was sitting at the kitchen table. If I'm holding the camera, all they want to do is see themselves on the video screen, so I had to be sly and set up the camera on the table. It worked! I caught them singing several songs, loudly, and they were totally unaware that they were being videoed. I'll have to put that footage on DVD and send it out to our family, they'll love it!

After all the singing and happily playing together, it was time for a nap. That's when the good behavior went straight to bad. I don't know what goes through their minds, but Savannah especially seems to have a strong willed streak. When I was changing her diaper she decided to kick the decorative letters on the wall above the changing table. She's done this before and knocked a few off the wall, and one broke (it's wood, so I have no idea what happened). This time she took off about 3 letters. I had warned her to stop or we would take the letters off the wall for awhile. About 2 minutes later, she looks at me and kicks the letters again--this time really hard. I got mad, gave her a couple of swats and now all of the letters in her name have come down from the wall. Makes the room look really blah, but I don't know what else to do. Her behavior is so frustrating sometimes. It's really hard to deal with when she gets that way.

I realized something over the weekend. Our girls are a total delight to be with when we get to spend individual time with each girl (it happens so rarely). I had such a great time with Emily on Saturday. Seth took Savannah grocery shopping with him and I stayed home with Emily. We didn't do anything special, all she wanted to do was hang out in the kitchen with me, drawing, while I cooked lunch. It was so different than when both girls are together. I can see why other couples pursue more children once their first child hits 2 years old. It makes me sad that our girls are so competitive for my attention, and often so mean to each other on a daily basis. I can only hope that will change as they get older and are a little more mature. It scares me to think what their behavior might be like if we added another child to our family. So, for now, 2 is all I can handle, unless God suddenly has other plans for me.